(july 8th of 2025) i have been sold a lie, and i gave it to myself. i watch all these people make it big on places like tv, youtube and even that damn app known as tiktok.
this is the day i realize that my worth is not defined based of views, fame nor how well recieved i am, it is solely based off what i deem to be the case, and that stings me.
what made it even worse is that everyone i watched was a fuck-off too; total waste of space who got famous based off the time period where the influx of watching people sitting on their ass grew big
i need to find a better role model than these people, i need to find out who i can REALISTICALLY be, if not, someone to be better than.
the day i realized i could not do fuck-all for a living was a horrible eye opening day; it was a stupid realization, yes, but it was a needed one.
i need to make myself useful instead of being taken advantage of by these big corporate companies that have now made it their life-goal to stupify everyone.
i have let my priorities down, i feel that i've let everyone down, and i feel that i failed already before i even started, but i need to get over that feeling before it kills me.